I'm back....for now.

well i finally decided to get back on the horse and actually make use of this blog thing. right now i am listening to the ramones. good stuff fo sho! an interesting thing happened to me the other day. i was waiting after one of my classes and this girl in my class was talking to a professor and she was relaying to him a story about how she got into an accident up in the canyon a day or so before. she said that she rolled her car and had to get pulled out of her car by some stranger. she also stated that she was still in shock. it made me start to think how i would react if that would have happened to me. would i be happy to be alive or would i wish i was dead. i have been thinking about this a lot lately. i have even discussed this matter with some others and i am starting to realize that i knew my answer all along. i believe i would be glad to be alive. this story that i overheard about the girl has affected me enough that it has caused me to start to appreciate life a little more and for what i have. because after all i could be dead tomorrow or even in an hour for that matter. either way i would have to face my Maker and i would have to be accountable for all the things that i have done. so in effect i want to not only live better but realize that i better live! we have all heard that addage that life is short and what not. but i have discovered that life being short is not the problem the problem is that our lives may not be good enough. i am not talking about accumulation of wealth or what not i am talking about doing a good turn daily. i have thought about this and i think that right now i am deficient in that aspect of my life. yet i realize that i still have the opportunity to change. that is the beauty of it. that time still allows me such a opportunity as wonderful as that. one of these days i will have to thank that girl for sharing her story. not for so much that she had to experience what she did but that she shared it. the intricate nature of life is astounding. now with all that being said i have to be honest in saying that it is still hard for me to get out of bed and knowing that i have to be around people and deal with my interpersonal relationships. yet i think that things may have hope in them yet. i was telling someone the other day that i have heard that in the entertainment industry there is a term "overnight sensation" and i have also heard that it takes years to become an overnight sensation. with that said i feel i am in the overnight sensation process. one day i may wake up and it will all make sense in my heart and in my mind. yet it will have taken years to get to that point.